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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

109: "You'll Never Change What's Been and Gone"

It's been so long since I've posted here. Yes, I do miss you Blogger. But I love tumblr more.

This year...has been rather eventful. I like it that way. Despite all the tears and retching, I like it like that.

Sec 3 Camp was enjoyable. I definitely had fun. Loved being the most Spirited group :). And also, I lost 4 kgs after that so it can't be bad lawl.

During the March holidays, I was busy ton-ing at other people's house. At SW's, usually.

Then on the 16th of March, something magical happened. Something that's brought me so much bliss. But it doesn't really matter now...

The June holiday was ... hell. Retched like 15 times in total during the chalet and added 8 more scars to my portfolio. Now I have 50 scars in total (Beat that!).

And now it's the September holiday. Life is as uneventful as it will ever get. I hate it. I'm always home and I have nothing to do. Homework? Feeling pretty unmotivated. Movies? It's routine already.

I do wonder how my life will be in the future. I'd like it eventful, but I know it will wear me out someday. Still, I thank God that I have my buds (E, Xw, Abx!, Sheng, no-life Jiasheng and Gary, and...others). They are the reason why I'm still hanging on.

Kbb.

PS. Don't forsake me.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

108: Klutz :0

You got me tumblrin'.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

107: Down

The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so

Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so

- "Down" by Blink-182

No particular reason to why I'm posting the lyrics to this song. I just like it :)

Sunday, March 29, 2009

106: My life kinda sucks right about ... now

So I was wondering, if our emotions were like a chain of chemical reactions, what would it be like?

For me it would be:

Loneliness - Lots of thinking and brooding - Misery - Deliberate self harm - Sianness - Angst - Exhaustion (For some reason I get very tired after feeling angry/sad/emo/whatever)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

105: :)/:(

Today was ... not so great. Starting to hate school .. my class rocks but I just don't fit in. I'm like the only emotive, always prone to depression (as said by Mrs Chew, haw haw) person in Class 3E2 of '09. And to all the happy, mindless people in my class, you guys have it better. As always.

I didn't actually think I could make it through the day without my spare blades .. Thankfully Mdm Chia let me sleep during MT and Miss Angela Chew didn't come. (OMG HOMEWORK). Dammit. Blood. I need blood.

Watched the sneak preview of The Confessions of a Shopaholic with Alexorcist at 9. The movie ended at around 2330 wth. Took a cab home after that. I hate popcorn. I hate Coke. Stupid things made my tummy bloat again. WTH.

S.W.'s ill ... credz to me. :(